Deep in December
“Deep in December it’s nice to remember
Although you know the snow will follow
Deep in December it’s nice to remember
Without a hurt the heart is hollow…”
I grew up listening to this lovely song, and Jeff and I saw the staged musical on one of our first dates. Although the message of its words rang true to me in my youth, I did not fully understand them until recent years.
Holidays are fraught with bittersweet memories of times forever gone. Whether the years we remember are recent or decades ago, no small part of their poignancy is the sense of how unaware we must have been; how little we sensed that these hours and days would soon vanish, never to fully return. The irony is that we can lose ourselves in these ruminations while even now, the days that are passing may well be times we will someday look back on with an equally strong feeling of nostalgia.
I have told Jeff I hope and believe we will look back on this Christmas season as the time when everything changed; when we felt he was given his life back, with a fair chance of living far beyond the “two years with treatment” predicted over a year ago. Of course, any number of things could happen to change that. Knowing this, we cherish each day and savor each moment to the fullest extent possible.
Look around you today, at the people, places and events of your life you value most. Today they are yours! Even as we think with wistful gratitude of times that have passed, I hope we will embrace the beautiful, ephemeral present, with all its joys and sorrows.
One year ago today